it takes time to realize,

Wohoooo! well as you all know, spain won last night;). awesome wasn't it ? a great match. well i didn't really get to watch it haha but well yeah okay.



Nothing interesting happened today. well apart from having fun in class. haha. great fun heh. i just realised that you cn really go crazy and easily distracted being in my class haha:D. Bio teacher said that nxt week we'll have frog dissection! OMG can't wait! it sounds kinda scary and disgusting at the same time, but it would be funn i think, yes hopefully. Biology classes are getting more INTERESTING each day. wonderffffful.
was on my way to sleep actually, but couldnt seem to fall asleep though. so yeah okay.

This is what happened. You adore that person so much. it could be just anyone, your friends, your best friends, teachers, relatives or just anyone. you made him/her your idol. you like everything about that person. you respect that person very much. but in the end he/she ruined everything. he/she are the one who will totally change everything and make it vice versa. i mean like, yeah you want people to respect you, but you should respect other people too. We are normal human being right, so its okay to make mistakes. but if you want to say something or whatever, wether its something positive or negative, make sure you do it the right way. you need to think what you're gonna say before it actually came out from your mouth, and plus when you are someone who is matured and old enough to differentiate whats good and whats bad. words could kill. and plus, you are someone who is well respected, but i don't see it that way now. and the respect towards you will slowly fade. well i'm not perfect. and still young to even give my thoughts, but that doesn't mean that you're better than me.

some people are really smart and clever, but they can't think about the little things in life. kalau pandai gila belajar smpai tinggi2 tapi tak bole think outside the box tak guna jugak kan? pitty them.

ohh and yeah, got to know lots of new people recently and its pretty amazing to see how nice and cruel a human being can be. its really hard to see whos being sincere and honest kan nowadays. you can't just simply trust anyone. so, don't. or you'll regret it sooner or later.

OH MY GOD. Eclipse is out! wanna go watch it right away but have to wait till nxt week;(. so excited to see jacob<3 and edward<3, oh and bella too. lalala~

you're so fcked up.

muahs<3

This new chapter

Well okay i'm gonna let it all out here.

So its like this

It has only been a while since we've got to know each other right? hee yeah. I was so messed up and miserable but you brought me up. You helped me a lot actually heh thank you:D. The way you treated me amazingly, the more you've made me longing for you to be by my side. As time flies by, we got closer i guess? yeah yeah. was nice knowing you. a great shoulder to lean on. I abandoned you without words and explanations. I'm really sorry i did so. I know its my fault. but you could've told me earlier. then i wouldnt make a fool of myself.i feel really stupid. you want me whenever you want me and tht was it. or you just don't need me anymore, yeah that's more like it. sad right. hmmh. but whtever we're still friends,we're just not like before. i really miss that. i'm full of regrets now, but thres no use of regretting. you've made your decision i guess. so this is it.

i miss how you used to sing me to sleep
You brought me up, yet you're taking me back down.
amazing how fast people change right ?
Its all done.


you're the only one who could sing me twinkle twinkle little star and put me to sleep.
Another history



-The End of this Chapter♥

lazy bum

I don't have the mood to blog recently.
such a lazy ass.



Iman Qistina:)


my sister just got married and we finally have a brother in the family;)





Oh, Hello motherfucker;)
<3

perhaps perhaps perhaps

WOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAh. its been ages kannnn? hahaha. hm yeah. have moved to the new house. and everything has been settled down. but sadly internet tak dpt2:(. using my cousin's pc right now.
oookaay.

so, this one week break i havent done anything fun in particular. spent most of the week at the golf course. haha. weird kan? well syafiq dapat jadi wakil wilayah for under 15. its the mssm thingy. it was held in Seremban international Golf Club. so i woke up at 5.30am for 3 days in a row just to go support syafiq. haha bagus kann;D.

at first i hated going there cause i'd hve to korbankan my sweet sleeepinggggg momentt. plus its the holiday, so thought nk tidur la puas2kan, but no;(. grrh. but after the first day kan, wooohoooo. i loveee going there. hahaha. there were lots of cutie pies! haahaha semua comeeel je. oh and not to mention, they got the $$ alright. hah NINA since when ni? haha. no la kidding. there are really cute ones though. teehee;D

oh god i got really tanned well wait, citam is the right word. hahahha.


a lot happened this past few months heh;D.
ohh wait, WHAT THE FISH? fuck you, thank you.

this is what i think

okay. hmh all in a sudden this comes in my head
which is : to never love someone so much. so that it won't be so painful and leave you such a big impact when they left:).

lesson learned.

a little while

you can see me smiling again, without faking it:)
ahaaaa okay. so i didn't go to school in total for 5 days. weekends including the hari wilayah . haha mcm ni ceritanya,
hmmh mcm mana nk start. well on saturday ada mild headache. thought it was just a normal headache la kan. then biar. on sunday after the movie pun ada headache, tp mcm biasa jugak. smpai monday terus tak boleh get up from bed! so went to the doctor, she gave some med for the headache. then went home. tuesday kepala tak elok2!!!-.-'. so went to another doctor. she checked my blood pressure. then dia tekejot beruk mengatakan my blood pressure is so damn low. but err i dnt knw why. haha. dia kasi ubat powerrrfull habis smpai lah bole berjalan sikit lepas tu. she gave me 2 days of MC for tues and wed.
planning to go to school on wednesday, dah ready semua that morning. then the headache came back. shittttttt. so tak jadi pergi skolah. haha.

haih i missed 2 classes of BIO!!! thts just terrible kann?:S. i missed my classmates, teachers and school too. especially the girls dua org yang mmg tak boleh diam yg duduk depaaaaaaaaaan skali tu;p
today's classes was fun. kepala nk pecah again as usual sebab add maths. haha thanks to alia sukri, you've been a greaaat help. hihi okay.

so daddy's away to lumut again. so its me syafiq and mommy. along is nowhere to be found as usual la.

went to jusco au fr dinner. sedap gila dapat toast dkat old town white coffee.
jln2 to buy groceries, alamak terjumpa zamil aufa tu:P. hihihi.
it was not planneeeed. well i did asked him to come but he said mama dia ckp tak payah .then tiba2 his daddy ajak dia pergi so dia ikut jela kan. and like yeah .HAHHA ;p. nice meeting your daddy too. haha scarrry. lama tak jumpa dia. last jumpa on friday. haa yeah. heee.

i wont go online as often as i used to. weekend je lepas ni. oh and i'm moving. so i guess i wont be online for a while lah jugak:)

♥♥ muah

i'm here for YOUR entertainment

OMG i can't believe tht its almost FEBRUARY!!!! cepat nk mati:/.
WOOOOOOOH!okay so today was girls day out. hahah .went out with my mum:D. it was fun. thanks for the new pencil case:). hihi. okay so we watched The Toothfairy. it was awesome. i laughed my head off and i think i left it in there HAHAHHAAH-.-'. i sat next to an indian man. hes big and bald. tgk rambut dia pun takut jugak takut end up mcm tu. HAHA. okay soo, i dnt knw why but it was just me and him yang gelak tak ingt dunia. aha sad je. oh my mum sempat tidur dlm tu lagi .hahah haih.

♥
went home tidur tak ingt dunia haha. err we were on the phone+skyping cause he couldn't find his mic. haha and i was bored talking ALONE. so yeah. good idea jugak kan ? hee;D


oh hmmh, the whole day of today headache je. and my neck sakit nk mati!!!! taktau kenapa:S. since ysterday actlly, but today at around 1 dtg balik the headache:S. takut ah, nk pegi check this tues.
oh and i found this article and i think this explains it all. hmh :S

Neck Pain:

Causes

A common cause of neck pain is muscle strain or tension. Usually, everyday activities are to blame. Such activities include bending over a desk for hours, having poor posture while watching TV or reading, placing your computer monitor too high or too low, sleeping in an uncomfortable position, or twisting and turning the neck in a jarring manner while exercising.'

heh okay. MUAAAAAAAH<3

where is it ?

this song is just so cute. i cn cry by listening to it .ahha. nah lagu ni best sgt:)

it has been a week heh? not easy:S
hmm okay i'm so boreeed right now. i can't sleep. we've started moving stuffs to the new house. very tiring. but i couldnt help much cause of my finger. hehe.
i dnt knw wht to talk about, really.

had fun:P
Zamil Aufa:)

god bless you.
MUAH

like a knife

cause today, you walked out of my life
cause today, your words felt like a knife
lalalala~~
OKAYY SOOOO
was late to school cause semua tak bangun. pagi2 lagi dah tgk muka cikgu disiplin tu mcm singa nk mkn org-.-'. whteverrrrrrr i ignored her. haha
during our PE lesson, our PE teacher asked us to write "things that make you happy" and "things that you hate most" in both your school and personal life. well, mine was a lonnngggg list. especially in that things i hate most list. and it was somehow quite difficult to list down things that makes me happy. but yeah it was a good activity la sebab dapat express everything. wehee:). i bet she'll be like "wtf is this girl's problem ni?" reading my lists. haha. sorrry;S

soo class went well. everything is as usual. english class was so boring:S. physics and bio was funn;D. ohhh haha, i would like to apologize to syamimi causeeeee, hmh. okay i was late, so tak sempat nk balut my finger tu. masa physic class terlanggar baju sndiri, bammmm darah balik. kebetulan darah tu kena mimi pnya paper work. really sorry. the blood just wont stop. mcm air pipe je dia minitik2 semua padahal langgar my sleeves je. wthell kan ? haih. my physic teacher tgk pun dia ckp veryyy menakutkan. hihi. sorry eh mimi. hee
okay so i was not as excited as before to wait for the bell to ring.
reached home, had lunch and yeah.

went to see the doctor. she cleaned my cut. and then put some stuffs on it. the worst part is, she gave me this one painful injection yang sangat menyakitkan smpai skrg ni pun sakit jugak:S. GRRRHHH. haha, but believe me, all this physical pain i'm going through is STILL not as painful as wht happened.

daddy is away. i miss you:(.

OMG,you've helped me a lot:P, thank you <3

Xx

OMG I MET JACOB BLACK!

okay i dengan along and mak jalan2 nk beli barang2 dapur kt jusco au2. then as we were walking, i go AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ALONG!!! and shes like what? and i said " OMG THAT'S JACOB BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and shes like wherreeeee. i showed her. then shes like OMG ha'ah la. ARGHHHHHHh
theres this one guy masa tu, he looked EXACTLY like jacob black i'm not kidding. hes like mix of malay and mat saleh mana taktau la. hahha .damnn it. muka sbijik i tell you. but unfortunately badan dia kurus and tinggi sgt. so tak sama la. but the face is like WOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH JACOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay i'll be able to sleep in peace tonight. YEAY;D. haha.
thank you stranger

current needs.

surprise surprise!!! somebody txted me goodnight last night. but i was asleep so i didnt reply you. but if i weren't too i woulnt be replying i think. its not that i'm being rude or whtever, its just that, yeah okay whtever. its so hard to not be thinking of it.
okay i dont know why but my hair is all falling out!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not just me. Naza pun is having the same problem. hahaha. damnnn it. mcm mana ni eh? i think i need this book urgently!!!!!grrrrhh.


Today is monday. i hate mondays. everyone hate mondays right? grrhhh. i slept early last night but i was still sleepy in class.
ohhh, ysterday was very tiringg. had great fun;D.






You guys have been a great help. thank you so much. I really needed all that. oh and happy belated birthday again to azura:). love you muah.

oh and not to forget, that someone who gave me advises. hee. nanti i'll teman you go shopping again alright?;D. and thanks for sending me home too.

Oh my god. while updating this, i went to the kitchen to cut some fruits. i accidently cut my finger:/


HAHA eew disgusting right,i knowww.

haih, nasib malang betul these past few days:S
better get going, muah

Xx ♥

come and go as you wish, sweetheart

well, i've been wishing for that it was just dreams whenever i wake up in the morning. unfortunately tht will never come true. it hit me so hard that i dnt knw what to do, where to go and who to turn to anymore. i know we were not taking it serious or whtsoever, but that doesnt mean you cn do as you wish. the pain is indescribable. its very difficult to get all this out from my head and to accept this fact. its painful to see the pictures. tears run down my face just by thinking of it. it jst happen so fast. i keep thinking about this whenever my eyes are opened. it jst wont go away. this is just so hard and unacceptable. its just so hard and it gets harder when you make it sound so easy. all of this are just some bullshits and totally meaningless to you. its unfair, you don't play around with people's feelings. i may only be 16 yrs old at age, but i'm still a human being, with a heart. its weird, how could you even have the heart to do this. i need to learn to accept all this and i have to accept it, no matter what, sooner or later i will. hopefully.
Dear God, please give me the strength to go through all of this over again. it was hard enough the last time, but it gets harderrr this time.
Sayang, i will cherish our moments together and everything we had in my sweetest memories.

this song helped me, in a way.


I'll say you never hurt me and took it as learning, and laugh about the good and the bad

speechless.

i'm a human being. i have feelings. why oh why? why do you have to lie? you have no rights to do this to me. i shouldnt've trusted you in the first place. i'm an idiot, for trusting you. its unfair. i feel stupid -.-' and used too.
it kills to see the pictures.
awwwh you guys are so sweet.
thank you.
i jst dont know wht to say anymore. how could you:/

shut up

what the hell is wrong with me ?haha. its almost 12. and i'm listening to chris brown's songs. prghh.

okay so this week is the 3rd week of school. form 5 and form 3 students has started their intervensi. haha.sorry for you guys. everything is going well i guess? yeah yeah okay. one thing i realized, being in form 4 is funnn! well maybe for the start je. entah .ahah. but like reaaaallly really tiring. i don't mean physically, but MENTALLY. not joking.wohooo. i'm hating you BLOOD SUCKER! you you you yeah you mosquitoes, more and more each day. eh no Edward Cullen, i still love you no matter what, please do bite me and turn me into one of your kind too PLEASEEE. err wht am i crapping here ?haha. grhh THESE mosquitoes just won't leave me alone. babi punya nyamuk2 sekalian.

okay i'm so blank:S.
GOODNIGHT<3

now the story is played out like this!

i miss kenny roger's muffins. this is delicious. i feel like eating muffinssss.


i dont seem to have the mood to blog. kenapa eh ?

today ada merentas desa. i got sunburneed like really badlyyyyy!dah hitam teruk sgt taktau nk describe mcm mana. i didnt exactly run. hihi. walk jela kan;p. haih. finishes at 4. it was fun though. i carried a cat while walking! the cat was sooooo cuteee geram sgt.
so, kluar gate skolah, the driver didnt pick me up. AGAIN. babi betul. walked home. well didnt exactlyy walk. haha. half way ada manusia kasi tumpang. kebetulan dia lalu situ. it was a huge embarrassment that he had to see me in my uniform. HAHAHA. and like i was all sweaty and stinky;p. smpai rumah kena bahan dengan my mum and my along. both of them were like "ohh kebetulan ke mmg dah call dia dulu" with the perli perli gelak2 sengih2 way. i mean like eh nooooo. i called you guys to pick me up but you guys said taknak. so i walked home la. and kebetulan jumpa dia kt situ. it was a coincidence! a lucky oneee. sounds like it was all planned, but seriously noooo. mmg kebetulaaan. betul tak tipuuu. i was just luckyy:D.
haha hm yeah okay. grrh tomorrow is Thursday! yeayyyy! oh btw, thanks a lot for the ride home and really sorry menyusahkan:P


♥♥
Oh today is Azura's birthday!! You are now sixteeen! may all your wishes come true, may Allah bless you and semoga panjang umur okay?:D. oh btw, i can't give you my putin. really truly madly deeply sorry. hes my precious and my eternity boyfriend. sorry kak;p. Oh btw, I love you so much:). Have a blast birthday;D


-theres been too much of this lately:/

xx ♥

that's not it.

I am NOT pms-ing. grrrrhhh! and its obviously not funny.

oopsies

Well, I got into Pure Science class instead of account's class! woooh;)

Oh, Biology class was quite fun and interesting. Hope it would still stay fun and interesting:D


Haha this man reminds me of someone;p

I miss you:(

Muah♥

First Day Of School!

hmmh, it wasn't so bad:). my english teacher said i looked slimmer*. HAHHA yeaaaaaay berjaya berjaya. more weight to lose though.

okay so today has been a really depressing day! I shall say that i was not in my best mood. so, whoever yang terkena tempiasnya tu sorry lah ye. maaf bnyk2.

wooooh, form4 is getting scary-ier. i don't know if it really is as scary as told by my teachers. or they jst want to creep you out.

What a surprise, i'm taking Principal Account. wooh! haha weird kan? well yeah okay. so i'm taking principal accounts with economy and visual art. heh. okay don't really wanna talk about thisssss cause i'm jst getting my mood back:). thanks to my friends yg kasi all opinions and all. thanks to daddy:). thanks to johan;D.

I better go now, mak dah bising!

Muah♥

2010 :)

HAH can't believe its the first day of year 2010. haih, gonna miss 2009;(. But whatever. I'm really excited to see whts ahead of me. err or should i say, not really. heh;S. hmm okay. so ysterday went to KLCC. nk tgk sherlock holmes. but instead, watched cirque du freak: The vampire's assistant. agak bodo la movie ni. but hes cute, so never mind. haha.

So, new year's eve. Had dinner with Naza:). then later err i need to fast forward things.HAHA. ------------------------

Kakak adwina picked us up. went to Bukit Bintang. teman diaorg dinner at ths arabic restaurant named Naab which is located right in the middle of jln Bukit Bintang. It was all cramped and full of HUMANS!!!!!!!! lepak2 kjap. then went to pavilion's entrance. a great crowd there and you cn barely breathe! okay. It has been the best new year i've ever had so far;D. thanks to kak Adwina and Johan:). You're the first;p. okaayyyy i shall fast forward everything. ahaha---------------------
went home then, couldn't sleep. hee :)




comel kan?;p

Okayyyy, 2010 Resolution:

1) better start focusing and take my studies seriously. like really, not kidding. result dah teruk baru nk sedar. pffttt

2) lose mooooooreeee weight. need to be done before June 12th, HAHA;D

3) need to appreciate loved ones more.

4) need to belajar gelak mcm perempuan melayu terakhir sbb many has complained about it, HEH;p

5) LESS shopping. if its possible la. haha

6) jgn membuli dan jgn dibuli

7) tolerate fools more gladly:)

8) Turn in my homework on time

9) Karma has got me, so i'm hoping to not repeat the same mistake again.

10) Be a good girl:)

thts about it kot:D.

Happy New Year! Enjoy getting a year older. and, yeah:D

Slept at 4.00 AM and woke up at 8.00 AM. then went back to sleep at 11 till 12 smthing. i never get my goodnight sleep anymore;(.

Went to Pavilion. only god knows how boring it is to go to the same place again and again. rasa mcm nk bomb pavilion! four of us had lunch together at Nando's and went karaoke for the last timeeeeee before school starts.
I'm gonna miss you guys;(




VERYY tired, and sleepy. GOOD NIGHT~

Muah♥